Musing Out Loud: A bittersweet attempt to sort my life out

I have noticed that my blog posts and rarely related to one another, and for that I apologise. I have been pretty scattered when it comes to blogging, which is why I am writing this piece.

I have been toying with the idea of starting a YouTube channel and I just couldn’t quite make my mind up on what I wanted to do. Initially, I wanted to start a gaming channel but I realised something: I’m not very good at playing video games, and I can’t afford much of the latest releases. Even if I chose to be a retro gamer, I’d still have to fork out for a capture card and decent recording equipment which is something I really can’t afford. I want to write and share my adventures and passions with the world so what am I good at: reading and watching a lot more  TV than I should. So, now I am looking into starting a BookTube channel instead of trying to break into a medium that I know I won’t get anything. I’m not going to promise anything straightaway, but I am promising that I am going to clean up my act, and to start blogging about things that matter, to me, to the world. So, just watch this space.


Falling Re-in love with books 

I love reading. I’ll read anything as long as it has an interesting plot and character that grips my attention. It doesn’t matter what genre the book is: I’ll give anything a go. 

Recently I noticed I’ve been struggling to get into reading. Like I’ll start reading but it just won’t get me excited. I won’t be getting excited about going to bed and reading before going to sleep. Or sitting curled up with a cup of tea and a book for hours just stopped appealing to me. It was devastating. I just lost all interest in reading for a while. I hope I’m not the only one who goes through spells like this. 

I mentioned to one of my flatmates whilst I was at uni that I was in a bit of a reading slump. She gave me a book to read: A Court of Thorns and Roses by Sarah J. Maas to read and I fell in love with it. I fell back in love with reading again. The book was fantastic and it was just what I was looking for to get out of my slump. 

So here I am, hooked on the second book for the series and I am even planning on starting a book vlog! I would absolutely love it for you all to recommend books to read and review. 

I started a bullet journal 

I like to be organised. Everything I have to do/ need to do gets written down. I write lists about lists. I get thrown off if my day plan or list doesn’t go accordingly. I get stressed if I don’t start listing things I need for a holiday two months before (like I am right now about London). A few of my university friends suggested I tried out the bullet journal. 

When I first looked at it, it seemed far to confusing and complicated for my liking so I left if for a few months.  Until I saw this post on pinterest that made it seem so much simpler and the world just fell into place. The post broke down the basics and explained in a way that it made total sense. And now I am obsessed with bullet journaling. It is absolutely everything I have ever needed in my life and I am kicking myself for not starting on sooner. Better late than never.  It is just pure genius and even better: I get to do it my way. I can make it as colour coded and organised as I like. I absolutely love it. 

After I’ve gotten it to the way I like and figure out the rest, I shall write and article about getting started and even through in a few ideas as well.  

I’m Back With Big Ambitions

Hello there my lovelies,

I do apologise for the lack of blog posts recently, I’ve been extremely busy with univeristy work and work itself. A quick update: I’ve managed to read a few books from the list (which I will totally go into further detail in another post if I ever get round to it).

Recently I’ve been toying with the idea of starting a YouTube channel. The plan is to start a vlog and video gaming channel under the premises that I am a terrible gamer but I am entertaining. I tend to yell a lot and comment on what I am doing, so recording it makes it seem more ‘normal’. I hope to start off with doing vintage gaming: e.g. PS1 and PS2 and then building from there. It will start of light, maybe one or two videos a week and grow as the channel grows. Of course this will have to fit around my studies and work life. Because let’s be honest, I doubt i’ll reach a high enough audience that I can leave my work all together. However, I like the idea of that so that is the long-term ambition. Short term: get my sh*t together, get my lie organised and start researching how to make the best out of my potential YouTube channel (I am not going to lie, I already have the channel name, a Facebook page, Twitter and Tumblr account all setup and ready to go).

So, there’s my plans for the future, potentially. However this may not get up and fully functional until May, once semester ends and the long summer begins.

To Read, or Not to Read

It’s that time again where I compose a list of books that I intend to read over the next year only this time, I’m blogging about it! This list also includes a separate list of graphic novels on my to read list. It’s also in no particular order!

  1. The Magician’s Nephew (C.S. Lewis)
  2. Percy Jackson and the Lightning Thief (Rick Riordan)
  3. A Storm of Sword (George R.R. Martin)
  4. The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe (C.S.Lewis)
  5. The Sword of Shannara (Terry Brooks)
  6. Flowers in the Attic (V.C. Andrews)
  7. Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy (Douglas Adams)
  8. Pride and Prejudice (Jane Austen)
  9. Dracula (Bram Stoker)
  10. Clan of the Cave Bear (Jean M. Auel)
  11. Frankenstein (Mary Shelley)
  12. 1984 (George Orwell)
  13. One Flew Over The Cuckoo’s Nest (Ken Kesey)
  14. Alice in Wonderland (Including Through the Looking Glass) (Lewis Caroll)
  15. The Two Towers (J.R.R.Tolkien)
  16. Return of the King (J.R.R.Tolkien)
  17. Colour of Magic (Terry Pratchett)
  18. Misery (Stephen King)
  19. American Gods (Neil Gaimen)
  20. Fantastic Beasts and Where to Find Them: The Original Screenplay (J.K.Rowling)

I am aware a lot of these are children’s books (I’m catching up on lost childhood, plus I love  Alice in Wonderland and have read two of the Narnia books). And now, The graphic novels

  1. Batman: Death in the Family
  2. Deadpool Volume 2: Soul Hunter
  3. Spiderman/Deadpool: Isty-Bitsy
  4. Kick-Ass  2
  5. Joker: Endgame
  6. Hush
  7. V for Vendetta (I swear to god, I will finish this graphic novel eventually)
  8. Captain America: Winter Solider
  9. Batman: Mad Love
  10. Harley Quinn: Greatest Story Collection (or something like that)

Disclaimer: There is absolutely no guarantee that I will stick to these lists. At all.

New Year, definitely not a new me

Well, that’s another year gone and dusted and boy, last year was a roller coaster. But that’s behind me now, so it’s too the future I look.

This year, I’ve decided to make one resolution and that I plan to stick to it: I’m not going to take shit from anybody. No more, emotional abuse from boyfriends because I’m too soft, no more letting old people just stop in front of me in the middle of streets or shopping centres (I’ve decided I’m going to either walk into them or scream random noises at them). The only time I’m going to hold back is when I’m at work and have to be nice and polite to customers, because I need the money more than I need the satisfaction of shutting down a rude customer.

I’m also aiming to change my eating habits (but i’m not doing this as a resolution). I have low iron levels in my blood stream, and I also have the most irrational fear of trying new food. I aim to change that, for my health more than anything else. I’m 21 years old dammit, I should be able to eat proper food. I’m also going to hit the gym and get fitter and healthier (not going to lie, I want a nice body so I can do more cosplays that I want to do but do not have the confidence)

Now before you say anything: You don’t need to have a thin body to do cosplays! I am absolutely aware of this, but this is a personal goal. I am using something I love to motivate me into doing something. Plus, years of bullying for being fat is difficult to move on from easily, although recently I have become a lot more confident in myself.

So here’s to a New year, and not changing who I am, apart from health wise!